Been feeling kinda down on myself again. I was feeling kinda good until my friend starts to talk about the number of jobs that she has and how I don't have one. She has like 3 while I have not a one.
I mean to me money is not all that important. I know that I need it so that I can have the things that I need. But sometimes I feel that some of the things that people feel that they "need" are optional, like furniture and a tv.
This convo all sparked from me telling her the good news that I got accepted into Iowa State University. and that I will be getting about 1600 a month as a stipend and I have to live off of that amount. And then we discussed how I will need to secure a loan so that I can move up there and pay for my housing. I guess I need to look for me a job.
She has the same mentality as my mother: get a job where ever you can cause money is money. I am one who likes to be happy or at least enjoy what it is that I am doing. Like I really really really don't want to work in fast food again. I feel that if I had to everyone would know how much I hate it. lol. I think I would sink into a depression and damn near suffocate in it.

Well I guess the only thing for me to do is to look for a job. so that I can have some type of money when I go to Iowa to start a whole new life. Well time to go getting a headache.

Hey hey hey

Ok well. I am staying with my brother and his girlfriend. It is going ok. except for the fact that I don't know anyone here and I am bored out of my mind. i have been looking for a job for quite some time now but no one is calling me back or even hiring. But I still have places that I want to apply to so we shall see. i really should try to see if any of the vet clinics are hiring. those will help me get a foot in the door when I do apply to vet school.

I am getting in more practice driving and I must say that I am getting better true I usually drive at night and have not driven on the interstate yet but hey practice is practice. I am getting the opportunity to practice in two separate and totally different vehicles; Lisa's Audi and my brother's Ford F150. So I am getting a little variety.

For the most part I spend my days inside being VERRRRRRRYYYYYY bored. I am like in solitary confinement. I have gotten to the point where watching tv is boring and I am getting tired to listening to the music that I have. I attempt to knit and crochet but it just isn't working for me. I do take enjoyment from going to the flea market on the weekends and going shopping. I really should cut back on doing those things cause I only have like $169 in my checking account and that has to last for quite some time or until I get a job. But when I go to the flea market I usually buy strings(supposed to be necklaces) of semiprecious beads that are 2/$5 which is a pretty good deal.And I buy vegetables from the Hispanic vendors. I have also used up all of my gift cards that I have gotten. I spent the last of my old navy one yesterday on two sweaters and some scarves. They were were in the clearance section and on sale so hey why not. Plus, I don't have any sweaters and those scarves will look cute on my head.

I have been attempting to pass the time by playing with my hair. It is still pretty short so there isn't much that I can do with it; I just wash it and pick it out and if I go out put a scarf or hat on.

I really wish that I could go into my closet more often and freely rummage through my stuff but unfortunately there is a mouse in it and in order to keep from escaping and wrecking havoc on my room I have it barricaded in there with a weight bar and some weights.

Well I am getting tired and have a headache. laters.